Techie’s Back!
Well it’s been a while.
Life has been all about play lately. A dice throw of risks and challenges that’s taking a toll to my otherwise ideal lifestyle. The company is making changes in our section, and we’ve been thrown in a pit of confusion regarding leadership and idealism. They brought two strangers into our midst who wasted no time shaking our foundation. It’s literally a hell of an experience. One has problems regarding belly button hygiene, while the other one has problems with hygiene, period. Too annoying to talk about really, but I’ll blog about them one of these days.
I feel a big storm coming.
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N and I are going through a phase. It’s been weeks since our last serious talk, and we’re once more introducing ourselves to one another. It’s a slow process, but I believe it’s necessary. Our separate lives have made us strangers. An aching thought really, but the love is there. I can feel it.
Still crossing my fingers.
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Now don’t think these re-introducing phase is going without a challenge. I name this challenge, J.
I think I blogged about him two months ago – childhood friend/ crush/ ‘techie can I take our picture since I don’t think we’ve ever had a picture together? Yup, him.
What is it about guys who seem to sense you’re vulnerable to anything remotely romantic right now?
I’ve seen him in two separate parties now, and it was actually a welcome break to be talking to him. I don’t think I flirted with him though (although I believe ex_groupie would say otherwise).
But there was… something.
The little things, the insignificant things – a sudden brush of our hands, a short glimpse, a small smile. It was electricity.
Small talks. And a few songs where he kept on saying he would’ve loved to dance to with me if only he had the courage to ask me to his prom.
One time I was looking at my phone when I felt him looking behind me. He wasn’t saying anything, but I could feel his warmth on my back. His face was inches from mine, and he was so close I could smell him. I wouldn’t dare look at him, but I also didn’t ask him to go away. The tension, his closeness was so palpable that I was curious to touch him. So without looking, I gently laid my palm on his cheek, and… pinched him.
That broke the tension, with dancing eyes we both laughed. And I guess he knew – I knew, this wasn’t going anywhere sometime soon. My heart really was somewhere else.
At the end of the night, he walked me again to my door, and before saying goodnight, he took my hand, held it for a while and said, “you really shouldn’t be touching my cheek like that you know.” I asked him why, and he simply shrugged and said, “because I might ask you not to stop.”
So he gave my hand a squeeze, then walked away.
What ifs never made me smile this much.
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I know the template is really simple, but I think it speaks a lot of who I am. Will add more on the blog as I try (unsuccessfully or otherwise) to learn html.
But first I’d like to thank…
Fairy Vixen: For the lovely blog template
Harriene: For helping me, okay my sister, understand the changes I need for this blog. I owe you a lot
Giuli: For also answering my emergency call regarding html
Kaoru: I’m raising your allowance. Thanks for the help
For everyone: You have all been an inspiration
I feel that this blog change is a transition. For what? I don’t really know. It’s a small step for all the changes I need to take on in the future (will be blogging about it soon). Afterall, in this big big world, it’s the small things that really matter.
Forgive the cheesiness, I’m just so happy i was finally able to do this after a long time.
It feels good to be back.
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